Boutique Day

So today is the day for the Annual Woods Elementary Holiday Boutique. I did not sleep that well last night in fear the alarm would not go off or little bits of doubt I would fail. I have this tremendous amount of a disease called Fear Of Failure. I feel it so bad sometimes that I question every decision I made that day, what I did wrong, what I need to improve on, etc,. So I would rather not try then there is nothing to fail at. But I decided this time to try. If I didn't try this time, I will never know what could have been. There were many times within the last week I wanted to call and cancel but then I would put the phone down and make another card.So I finally got out of bed a little before 5am-I have been checking the time since about 3:30am and got ready. We loaded the car up and took off. We pull up to the school and I start setting up and start looking around and start noticing everyone else. All of a suddden I started feeling very self conscience and very insecure. These women had brought like 2-3 banquet tables, card spinners and even some clothing racks. Here I am with my little bitty table and 3 small boxes of merchandise. I had no idea this was such a big event. I had heard it was just this little hole in the wall, second time doing it kind of boutique. After I swallowed my stomach and picked my chin off the floor, I kissed all 3 "boys" goodbye and sat down in wonder of how my day was going to go. Within the first five minutes, I had made my first sale.I started feeling a little bit more confident and thankful with that sale. I had several sales in the morning and then a huge lull and then about 30 minutes before it was over, I had sold several more cards. Every women that came to my table either bought something or was in awe of my cards so that had me feeling pretty good.I thought I did pretty good with this being my first boutique ever. I sold 45 cards and 7 tooth tins and 1 nugget holiday tin.I had several people take my business card asking if I did custom orders-so you never know. I am proud of myself for not only selling some of my items but just the fact that I put myself out there and I accomplished something I thought I could not do. The fear of failure is still there but it feels good knowing that I did try and I did not fail.